I"m Just Saying.......

Hello Friend...........

I have had a lot of time recently to reflect on my journey of life, there certainly is a story full of chapters and verses. I viewed a site recently of people's near death experiences and after viewing them I was assured that once long ago, I had my own near death experience. So please allow me to share my experience..........

I had injured my back and was taking pain medicine for the injury. One evening a couple came to my home to visit with my boyfriend at the time and myself. We played cards and participated in some adult beverages and such. I have always been naive in life, I had no thought of the consequences of mixing a medical prescription with another substance. I felt myself becoming faint like and did not wish for my company to know this, so I excused myself and went into the bathroom. Once in the bathroom I stooped to the floor by the toilet, feeling as if I may regurgitate. As I sat on the floor I started to realized I was no longer alone, there was a definite spiritual presence there with me. What happened next was very similar to the stories i viewed of others who were dieing. I began to see my life view and witness the so called tests or challenges I had in my life, some I did a good job of, others it appeared i fell short. This view seemed to be happening with great speed and knowing beyond my normal capacity of thinking. It suddenly appeared to me that the spirit that was with me was actually a spirit of death. I had overdosed and was dieing. When the realization of what was happening hit me, I became frightened and no longer cared if my companions in the house heard me pleading and crying or not. I began to cry out to God hysterically and ask that he not take me yet. I pleaded to the spirit or God, I am not sure which, that I had two young children that needed me and I had to be there for them. Obviously my prayer was heeded, I did not die. My companions in the house came to where I was and assisted me after hearing me cry out to God to please not take me yet. I think I scared my visitors so badly that once they realized I was alright physically, but perhaps mentally (not so much), that they left my home immediately. If it were not for my boyfriend I may have after-wards wrote it all off as an overdose, but the words that he spoke after the others left let me know it was more. He looked at me and said, "what was that spirit that was in the bathroom"? He also knew there was a spiritual being present.

My boy's are grown adults now, this experience happened approximately twenty seven years ago. I have had the luxury of time reflection since this occurrence, and indeed my children did need me through out their years of life. I am grateful that this was not my exit point in life. I do believe the other-side is my home and my spirit often longs to be there, home-sick in a way of speaking. I know longer wish my life away on earth to be in my heavenly home. I know there are lessons that have to be completed here first, chosen by me in another place and time. I must trust God to know when that perfect time is and until then I will continue on with chapter's of my life.

So twenty seven years later the DA Syndrome was corrected, I realized it is good to share my story. I wish you a great weekend and I hope you find my reading interesting. Love to you.....

I hope every one had a Merry Christmas. It is amazing how holiday's help you remember many days of year's gone by. I have many special memories of Christmas's of the past, but I suppose thinking of days when the boy's were small and we lived in PA are among my most favorite. I remember an elderly, unknown lady once telling me how cute the boy's were at the age I am referencing above, she also added.... I should enjoy them at this age for they would grow up so very fast. I thought that elderly lady was perhaps mistaken about that fact, but the DA Syndrome was at work within me at the time, they did indeed grow up fast and I do indeed miss those long gone year's. Now I await my yet to be grandchildren who will allow me the joy of reliving the beauty of youth.

My ah-ha moment with my blog

I have not blogged forever it seems. The reason for not doing so, was because I did not like pointing out other people's faults. I felt judgmental in doing so. I also, had become ill and had a lot of time to reevaluate my thoughts. My attitude prior to my illness was not of a positive nature, and I could not see myself afflicting my fellow blog viewers with that sort of dumb-a== negativity. So, I have decided I do have a lot of dumb-a== information to share, but it is my personal info. and that means I have grown from it all and can for sure share it. Yes, I have made some big DA choices alright, but maybe I should just stop talking about it all and share one with you. OK here goes..........One of my most recent was just about a week or two ago. I had a issue with my children, I was not pleased with some of their personal choices which I felt put them at high risk for danger. The issue was not a new one, but I was granted the "privilege" ha, ha, no not for real......any way I was granted the option of viewing this issue face to face.......YET ANOTHER TIME. You know avoiding control over others, especially your children, or your love ones, is not always an easy feat to avoid. I found myself worrying, being fearful and being a tad bit irritated, I know imagine that. I thought to myself.......... well, I am just going to have to speak to these children over this issue, ONCE AGAIN........Isn't that funny even writing those words, ONCE AGAIN points out clearly it does not work, you see the DA Syndrome at work here. Back to the story. I was already to forge ahead with my plan and then I watched a preacher on TV that Sunday morn that changed my mind, ah the voice of God, he speaks in all kinds of different forms, today it was through a TV show. The preacher spoke about the story in the bible of the "prodigal son" and how much the father loved the son unconditionally. I realized once more, my children are Gods children, just like I am his child and he will take care of them just like he does me. So I back-stepped just a little and remembered how much I loved my children, unconditionally. I also realized once again, thus the DA Syndrome was at work in me, presenting its self as my worry or fear and my control which does not work, but my prayers to God do. So I continue trying my best not to take the issue out of Gods hands and just leave it where it can be handled expertly. I get reminders pretty often I might say from these blessed children, to love unconditionally and not fret. So I am forging onward and saying THANK YOU GOD instead. Ahhhhh the freedom of trust instead of anxiety, and the DA Syndrome shrinking. Have a good day my friend's, it is good to be back.

If You Plant Corn You Don't Get Greenbeans

Happy Sunday..........
Today I am enjoying a slow morning on the back porch, sitting in my swing, drinking a lovely cup of coffee....Last night it rained and everything this morn is fresh and vibrant............I am enjoying the beauty of the fresh breeze, birds chirping, my flowers having an overnight growth spurt and one thing not so much, a squirrel............I am sorry for you animal lovers but, a squirrel just reminds me of a rat or a mouse, in fact I say they are cousins for sure...........I think it is just pure DA to think they are sweet, just big mice with fluffy tails...........All this talk about nature brings to mind a philosophy I would like to share with you. This parable supports the idea of you reap what you sew..........Ok here goes............You have a healthy seed, you plant the seed into solid rich soil, you water the seed daily and watch anxiously for its growth. Shortly you begin to see a small color of green poking thru the ground, ahhhhhh at last it is making its grand appearance..........The plant grows feverishly and soon you see it growing vines and wrapping around the sticks and stones near by.............soon you will have fresh green beans to enjoy from your homegrown garden...........NO SORRY DA........you don't plant corn and get green beans on a vine, you get corn growing on a stalk...........Take it as you will for you own life, but remember we all reap what we sew, so I am going along with my old neighbor who just reminded me of this yesterday.........I am planting seeds of love, for those are the seeds I want to grow in my life......................Have a great ending to your weekend and enjoy the day without thinking it is the last day off until Monday.........Tootles

Hide and Seek

Good Evening My Friend's............

The DAS attacks us so slyly, we become victims to it and do not even know that it has happened to us...........We fail to be thankful for our blessings............We fail to remember all the mountains we have conquered and climbed in our lives...........We fail to stop and just smell the flowers along the way...........For me today that flower was a beautiful little dark haired girl, about the age of 17 months..........I played hide and seek with her and the beauty of her laughter and smile was one of the best things in life I could hope to experience...........Yes today the DAS visited me and said you had no real fun in your life today, the DAS sneaking up on me and telling me a lie..........Tootles

Hello My Blogging Friends.............
Well, let me start with I had a "AH HA" moment considering my DAS blog..........I was thinking in my "own" brilliant mind, that I had to write a humorous site every time I blogged and because I was not feeling humorous I hesitated to blog...........That was a Dumb "A" thought...............This is my blog, a place where I can write what I choose............A place where I am not critiqued for my writing skills, it does not matter, it is simply my place to vent.............to chat, to giggle or to be serious at...........I had two people pass over to the other side this past week that I was acquaintances with.............One of the individuals was a spouse of an x-co-worker.......... which I have not stayed in touch with because I did not want people to judge or know my life from my past employment.............That is fine and understandable, people are "GLADYS CRABBITS", I know I did not pronounce or spell that last name correct, but it is how I remember that characters name in my own easter bunny, peter pan mind..........Gladys was the nosy neighbor in the old TV show entitled Bewitched, which aired when I was a child..........So in light of that you can understand why Glady's last name is a little off, that was YEAR'S ago...........So anyway, it does not matter for it my blog......ahhhhhhhhhh soooooooooo happppppppy about that issue...........Back to my x-co-worker, I feel sad today that I did not stay in touch with her via email........she was retired and I could have explained my feelings to her about the gossip and nosy issue, it was not her that I feared gossiping, but those whom she may still stay in touch with from our past job........That is sad for she most likly could have used my words of encouragement thru her spouses illness, it was DAS at work allowing me to make a lesser decision.............The other individual who passed on over to the other side, was an acquaintance that was included in a group that I occasionally sang karaoke with back about a year or so ago..........I saw this individual in a store a few weeks ago and dodged him thru the ales of the store, I just did not want to converse.........Too bad for me today that I did not siege that opportunity, I did not know it would be the last time I would ever see him again on this earth............Yes, sometimes the DAS has sad woes to tell..........Tootles

Day 2 of DAS reports

Hi, how was your weekend? Mine, well I loved Friday night because that meant no rushing out the door Sat. morn and having the opportunity to sit on the porch swing and enjoy a nice rich cup of Colombian coffee with flavored creamer...........It was lovely and I enjoyed, but then comes Sat. night and I am trying to hang out with the next door gang on the back patio and enjoy a few adult cocktails and some good vegetarian food. The gang next door are of a much younger generation then myself and I am a early to bed kind of gal, much to the opposite of them. So what do I do, I'll tell you what I did, I demonstrated the DA Syndrome...........yes I did.........I decided the best thing I could do would be give up the adult beverages and drink a nice hot cup of Colombian coffee, as matter of fact I had two. Well, needless to say the coffee did its job well, I stayed up to 11:30 pm and the rest of the night as well. Oh my gosh, I tossed, I turned, I slept for winks and dreamed nightmares, I experienced hot burn which could not be altered by water, ice cream or forced burps............Yep the DAS alright...........I hope tonight will be better, perhaps the country music awards will sing me to sleep............fa, la, la, la..........alright then see you around..........tootles...........